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again, boys are silly. but, you're welcome to prove me wrong.

how bout i jsut dont care anymore...ok sounds good.

edit// thats not about anyone who reads my lj, so dont freak out.

( fun )

( i found the boy for me... )

too bad i get to babysit those kids this weekend!!

yeah...coffee house action up at natura tonight! open mic..its cool like guinevere's, but less artsy. czech out Courtesy and whoever else plays.

photo adventure with holly and jessy tomorrow what???

CHEAT COMANDOS ROCK ROCK ON!!

( first real picture post ever )

( reel big fish )

graduation was bittersweet? more than that it was surreal. i felt like i was dreaming it. my brain cant hold the significance of all this. i liked throwing my cap in the air though, it was liberating. LIX (xbrightest) was right behind me in line, which was pretty groovalicious..other than that...ehh. i just dont like ceremony-type stuff. i hope i dont feel this way at my wedding.

basically...i realized that in the past four years i never fit at boone. whether it was the fallouts between friends that happened EVERY YEAR; the (false) rumor about me being a bigot; the weekends i didnt hang out with everyone because i didnt want to be the only sober one; or being a christian, but not a prep...which threw everyone off at FCA (most of the time. im not bashing FCA, i heart you guys. w/e)...i just never fit. im weird or something. at least switchfoot feels the same way..listen to the Beautiful Letdown.

but yeah. just for the record drewstud25 's community rocks me awesome. midway_ is a hipster and IMed me, we chatted about some stuff w/ my church and churhc in general. it was funny. God's so cool and here's why...i was rapping to Jesus about my church or lack thereof...literally 5 minutes later this dude from tennessee IMs me adn is like...hey...you should reconsider leaving your church because God might want to use you as a catalyst for change, and im like yeah i kinda thought so too but i dont wanna..etc etc etc. so long story short, im going to be more open to God keeping me at Discovery and using me there. im down for whatever He wants, cuz that's what's best for me.

oh and i got a digital camera for graduation...if you see me w/ it ask me to tell you a funny story about it.

anyway. its time for bed. someone go to IBAR with me sometime, it sounds kinda fun. <3

        if i built you a city, would you let me? would you tear it down?

effing weirdest thing ever.

just watched two pretty significant ex's graduate, and my friend who has leukemia, but got better like last week. (PRAISE THE LORD)

it was edgewater, i knew like 4 people...ahh seeing him turned me into a bleeding heart emo kid...i wanted to meet his family from california..and neil's kid...but we had to leave. im sad and i hope he goes to valencia. i dont effing hate him...even if he doesnt like me...(insert lame taking back sunday lyrics here)

i need a hug
and a boyfriend.
accepting applications

p.s. i AM dating this summer if the opportunity arises. i changed my mind and yes i talked to Jesus about it :)

im lame

</3EMOLY

this is so great::

He laid emeralds in her eyes,
but I'd already tried a bracelt made of gold
and a scarlet thread around her wrist.
Everything was wrong so we sang sentimental songs.
"Oh how seldom we belong but how elegant our kiss."
We painted crooked lines
but danced in perfect time to a love so much refined,
we know not what it is until like a dullen wine we pour into a grief known before
but never quite like this.
All i know now is regret,
it follows like a silhouette along the cobbelstone behind us,
but has nothing to say except to innocently ask,
its voice delicate as glass,
"Do you see me when we pass?"
but i continue on my way.

just for the record, i really, really, really dont like school.

my graduation is hanging by the thread that is mr. griffin's mercy. im not really worried about it.

i want food, or my bed.

should i go friends only?